Wednesday, September 28, 2011


Pastor David Wilkerson has done an excellent job of detailing what one must experience to truly be a man/woman of God in the first four parts of this series.  The reason why his story is one that we can understand is that whatever we are having flung our way, he knows all too well how we feel.  He's been down this road and he lived what he writes about.....firsthand.  In fact, he lived it right up until the day he died in April of this year.  His summation of these times are truly prophetic.  Let's see how he offers us his final words.
I know what it means to pray for - and then receive - the thousands of dollars needed to sustain this ministry. I've known what it means to walk for a whole year with Jesus leading me every step of the way, His voice behind me saying, "David, this is the way.  I know what it means to get out a pad and a pencil, and to ask God questions and have Him answer them for me.
I've stood before people in government and city officials, prophesying the words that God had given me. Then I've immediately turned around to face nights of deep, dark confusion when I didn't know which way to turn.  I've made multiple mistakes that cast me down in despair, and I've cried out, "Oh God, where are You?"
I've gone into my prayer closet for three or four weeks at a time and said, "God, I've got to touch You.  I've got to be broken."  And I've felt nothing but my own grief, coldness of heart and the heavy silence of heaven. Yet through it all I sensed God was at work.  "Just hold steady," I've heard the Spirit say to me.  "Ride out your storm!  When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him" (Isaiah 59:19).
Some of you are going through the flood right now. You know what I'm talking about when I say the heavens are as brass.  You know all about bathing your couch in tears.  You've been served your cup of pain, and have endured a night of confusion and an hour of isolation - cut off by everyone you know and love.  Nobody can touch that need in your heart!
I once had a woman come to me after I preached this message.  She said, "Mr. Wilkerson, when I came to church this morning, I walked in acting happy and carefree.  But when you talked about the cup of pain and the hour of isolation, I began to weep.  I realized I was just putting up a front. My husband has left me and my home is in turmoil.  I've had to cover it all up.  I've used it as an excuse to hide.  But now I know - I'm being flooded!"
That woman was broken before the Lord.  I prayed with her for God to keep her faith strong, and she left with the true joy of the Lord in her heart.  Dear saint, I believe that when a man or woman of God is in the making, enemy forces will come against him with great fury.  But he can stand up and say, "Though I am tried and tested, though all these forces are arrayed against me - I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day" (2 Timothy 1:12).
That's the time to take your stand!  You don't have to laugh or rejoice, because you may not have any joy at the moment.  You may have nothing but turmoil in your soul.   Years ago, I was sitting in the backyard when I had a Sunday off.  I was reading my Bible and getting a message from the Lord.  I felt His Spirit in a mighty way, and I was just praising Him.  Just about that time, I looked across the street and saw Gwen talking to a neighbor whom, for some time, she had been trying to win to the Lord.
Some other women were there, and they wanted Gwen to drive with them around the block to look at a certain house that had just been painted.  I saw Gwen get in the car with these unconverted women and suddenly, in one moment, a spirit came over me - and it wasn't God's Spirit!
"She shouldn't do that!" I thought.  "The Bible says to come out from among the lost and be separate. Why in the world is she going with them?" I stomped into the house and kicked a chair, saying to myself, "She ought to know better!"
Gwen was gone half an hour, and the longer she was gone the more I seethed.  When she finally came in the door, I was ready for her.  "Gwendolyn Wilkerson, I am a man of God, and I'll not have you running around with ungodly friends in this neighborhood."
Gwen was dumbfounded.  My voice got louder and louder as I spoke.  She started to cry, and suddenly I heard what was coming out of my mouth.  I stopped and said, "Honey, you know this isn't me.  The flood has come - the devil is trying to swamp me! Please, just give me half an hour. I have to get with the Lord right now!"
I went into my study and got on my knees.  Then I cried in repentance, "Oh Lord, I was just worshipping You moments ago.  I don't know what has happened, but I've been flooded.  Forgive me!"  I had not been living in sin.  In fact, I had been basking in the anointing and praising the Lord. I couldn't understand it!  As I prayed, I felt the enemy flood in again, trying to crush my spirit.  So I said, "I claim the cleansing of the blood of Jesus," and I began praising the Lord:
"Hallelujah, the Lord God omnipotent reigneth.  Hallelujah, the wicked one cometh and toucheth me not... .For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind" (2 Timothy 1:7). The more I praised, the madder the devil got.
Did the devil leave then?  No!  I felt no glorious victory.  I could still feel that depressing spirit - but I knew God was still with me, because Scripture says, "The Lord sitteth upon the flood; yea, the Lord sitteth King forever" (Psalm 29:10).  The Lord seemed to speak to me, "Don't get excited, don't panic.  You need do nothing. Just ride out the storm.  Commit all things to Me."
I went back to Gwen and said, "Honey, my spirit still hasn't settled, and it will probably be a while yet.  But forgive me, please. I'm sorry!"  I went outside and took a little walk.  The devil knew he couldn't get me disturbed - so he finally left!  The flood subsided and I started singing the praises of God.

Perhaps someone reading this is in the flood right now.  I'll not pray that God delivers you from your cup of pain - but I will pray that your faith won't fail, because Jesus prayed that for Peter (see Luke 22:32).  He knew that Peter's trial was God's way of strengthening his faith!
Are you going through a great testing in your life?  If so, stay in the Word.  Run to the Lord and spend time shut in with Him.  Stop trying to think your way through it, and rest in Him.  Those who get to the Cross must go through Gethsemane. But after the weeping and sorrow comes in the morning.
Beloved Christians tell me their sad stories of lost love, prolonged sorrows and illnesses.  Often it seems as if their trials will never end.  They seem to be locked in hopeless situations.  They experience pain, rejection and very little happiness.  Or the happy times are so few and far between that they begin to question the Lord: "Will this dark night ever end?  Am I destined to a lifetime of trouble?"
Oh, precious, troubled saint - God has not forgotten you. He has bottled every tear you've ever shed.  You must make Him the joy and hope of your life.  You must let His Spirit change you, so that circumstances can't hinder you anymore.
God does His best work when He's changing us.  That way, whatever comes, you will learn to rest above it all - seated with Him in heavenly places.  Remember: you are the object of His incredible love!

As I said at the beginning of this five-part series, I went searching for an explanation as to what it means to be a man/woman of God.   I got far more than I bargained for, for sure.  But it's what I needed to know.  And the timing couldn't have been better.  Thank you Lord.   And I say that not only for me, but for those others who needed your voice of assurance.  You are awesome beyond belief!!!



Monday, September 26, 2011


If you haven't realized it by now, the desire to be a man/woman of God requires more than the casual effort.  There will be peaks and valleys unlike any you've ever encountered before.  The rewards though are for eternity.  Let's do a check down on the first three parts of this series and get you ready for number four.

In Part 1 of "So You Want to Be A Man/Woman of God" we learned how God used failures in the lives of three men to produce godliness.  Those three, Job, David and Peter experienced all forms of frustration, discouragement and heartache in their lives.  Yet, they were transformed.

 In Part 2 came words of wisdom regarding what you will experience first.  According to Pastor David Wilkerson, at some point you be served a cup of pain.  Listen to Jesus' words in the Garden: "O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt" (Matthew 26:39).

In Part 3, we learned that to be a man or woman of God, you also must face a night of confusion. Jesus said, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even unto death" (Matthew 26:38).  The night of confusion always comes just before the victory, just before the light dawns.  But rest assured, dear saint: Before the power of Satan is broken, you'll face your night of confusion.

Part 4 of "Do You Want to Be A Man/Woman of God?" takes us around the bend for the homestretch through the teachings of Pastor David Wilkerson.  

As as a man or woman of God you must face an hour of isolation.  These words came from the lips of Jesus, God's own Son: "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" (Matthew 27:46). Job said of God, "He's become cruel to me.  I cry in the day and I rise in the night, but He hears me not." David said, "I am forgotten as a dead man out of mind" (Psalm 31:12).  He also cried out, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Why art thou so far from helping me?" (Psalm 22:1).

The hour of isolation comes when it appears God has hidden His face, and none of your friends truly understand what you are going through.  But, you ask, does God really hide His face from those He loves? Is it possible He lifts His hand for a short while, to teach us trust and dependence?  The Bible answers clearly: "God left him, to try him, that he might know all that was in his heart" (2 chronicles 32:31).

I can honestly say Jesus has never been more real to me than He is today.  But I can also say there is nothing you can do when you get on your knees and discover the heavens are as brass.  You cannot pray to break through.  You feel nothing but emptiness and defeat.  And your heart cries out, "Oh God, where are You?"

Does that sound strange to you?  Have you never faced this?  Then you have never truly been to the Cross or Gethsemane.  God says, "In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment" (Isaiah 54:8).  But He also says, " (I) redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies" (Psalm 103:4).  He promises He will extend tender, loving mercies in our times of isolation. Job said in his hour, "He knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold" (Job 23:10). David said in the midst of his hour, "I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever" (Psalm 89:1).  His faith remained intact; nothing could touch it.  And Peter, on the day of Pentecost, rose above his miserable failure to stand confident as he preached, "This is that which was spoken by the prophet Joel" (Acts 2:16).

We know these were all men of God.  The Bible says God acknowledged the righteousness of Job.  And He hand-picked David, saying to the prophet Samuel, "This is the one - anoint him!"  We know God's hand was on Peter as well.  Yet each of these men experienced great testings.

But what does all this have to do with you and me? Here is one practical application:  After one of my evangelistic meetings in San Francisco, a certain young man walked into the prayer room.  I had met him years before when he attended one of my crusades, and he had cried and prayed and walked out of the prayer room with true joy in his heart.  But now he looked totally forlorn; I had never seen such a sad young face in all my life.

The young man said, "Mr. Wilkerson, I don't know which way to turn.  I have no joy, and God seems to be far away.  I'm being tempted, and I'm afraid I'm going to backslide and lose my touch of God.  I walk the streets in fear and trembling!"

I put my hand on the young man s shoulder and said, "Son, this is your hour of trial. God is testing you to see what is in your heart.  Will you repent, accept His forgiveness and keep coming to the Light? God has not forsaken you."

Suddenly tears began streaming down his cheeks.  He said, "You mean God really isn't mad at me after all?" No, I answered.  Then he asked, "Is my restlessness and despair the result of some terrible habit in my life?" I said, "You'd have to answer that."  He replied, "No, I don't think so."

Then suddenly he began to see the light.  It was not God's fault - it was his own neglect of prayer and hunger for the Word!  At that moment, the Spirit of the Lord began to minister hope to him, and he raised his hands and praised the Lord: "Take me through, Lord.  Restore my faith!"  When I left him, he was thanking God for bringing him back to a solid commitment. The Holy Spirit was beginning to shine forth in him again.

There is a gospel song that says, "Standing somewhere in the shadows you will find Jesus..." That song must have been written by a tested man of God.  You see, the battle I face in my ministry is not in my home; I have a loving wife and wonderful children.  I have thousands of friends around the country who appreciate my ministry; my battle is not there.  I have never loved the Lord more than I love Him now.  I have never desired God more in all my life.

But the more I pray, "God, use me - open my eyes so I can see Your glory," the more I can feel the enemy's forces arrayed against me.  I feel myself being crushed as Jesus was, and I cry out, "Oh God, I can't endure it.  Take away this cup of pain!"  Like David, I want to say, "Oh that I had wings like a dove!  For then would I fly away, and be at rest" (Psalm 55:6).

So, how do you know and believe at the same time?  That's what much of these teachings come down to.  In Part 5, the light becomes brighter and clearer....



Saturday, September 24, 2011


In Part 1 of "So You Want to Be A Man/Woman of God" we learned how God used failures in the lives of three men to produce godliness.  Those three, Job, David and Peter experienced all forms of frustration, discouragement and heartache in their lives.  Yet, they were transformed.

 In Part 2 came words of wisdom regarding what you will experience first.  According to Pastor David Wilkerson, at some point you be served a cup of pain.  Listen to Jesus' words in the Garden: "O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt" (Matthew 26:39).

As we begin to explore Part 3 be aware of the confusion that lies ahead...not only for you but those around you.  Yes.....this is indeed a journey unlike any other.  Let's let Pastor Wilkerson show us the way....

To be a man or woman of God, you also must face a night of confusion. Jesus said, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even unto death" (Matthew 26:38).   Can you imagine the Son of God saying this? Didn't He know He was about to claim all victory over hell, death and the grave?   Didn't He have an innate sense of guidance and destiny, knowing the Father was with Him?   After all, He had told His disciples, "A little while, and ye shall not see me...because I go to the Father" (John 16:16).   He knew in His prophetic vision He would face this hour.

Yet the hardest part of faith is the last half hour.  The night of confusion always comes just before the victory, just before the light dawns.  But rest assured, dear saint: Before the power of Satan is broken, you'll face your night of confusion.

It will seem that your sense of purpose and guidance has been lost.  When David's night of confusion came, he said, "Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me; my heart within me is desolate" (Psalm 143:4).  In Peter's dark night of confusion, he became afraid and cursed his Master.

When Job faced his dark night, he said, "Lo, he goeth by me, and I see him not: he passeth on also, but I perceive him not" (Job 9:11).  A move had taken place in heaven - a checker moved on the board of Job's life - and he responded by saying, "Lord, I haven't trusted in my riches.  I haven't hidden my sins.  I've been honest; my integrity hasn't left me.  Why must I suffer?  Why do I have to face this confusion, something I don't even understand?"

Like Job, many Christians cannot understand why they must suffer.  They wonder, "Lord, I've not cheated anybody.  I'm not seeing another man's wife.  I don't have any dishonesty in me.  Why should I have to face a night of confusion?  Why can't I get clear guidance?"

Imagine the terror of David, the fearless warrior-king ruling a mighty nation, as the prophet Nathan came to him and exposed his sin.  David wrote three beautiful psalms about his night of confusion, when he could not understand why he had sinned.  He wrote, "It's too hard for me.  My sins have overwhelmed me, and my foolishness has deceived my heart."  After all the years of reaching out to God, David could not understand how he could have been so foolish.  "Why?" he must have wondered.

Like David, many godly people today face a moral issue in their life - and in their night of confusion they say, "God, why me?  My heart was searching after You, and suddenly sin overwhelmed me.  It plagued my soul."
Don't think that a person who has been used by God has the answers to these questions.  Even the most humble servant of God doesn't hear clearly from the Father all the time.  I've known what it is like to face that divine silence, to not hear God's voice for a season.

I have walked through periods of total confusion, with no apparent guidance, the still, small voice behind me completely silent.  I've had times when there was no friend nearby to satisfy my heart with a word of advice. All my patterns of guidance from before had gone awry, and I was left in total darkness.  I could not see my way, and I made mistake after mistake. I wanted to say, "Oh God, what has happened?  I don't know which way to go!"

That's some positive confession to make, you say.  But you too will face that kind of confusion when God begins to test your commitment to Him!  Thank God, it is only a dark night, and it will pass - because the Lord desires to make our path clear.

Whew......that's alot to digest let alone understand!!  But stay the course.  There is victory.  Before that, Pastor Wilkerson talks about "An Hour of Isolation".  That's what's up next in Part 4.



Thursday, September 22, 2011


In Part 1 of "So You Want to Be A Man/Woman of God" we learned how God used failures in the lives of three men to produce godliness.  Those three, Job, David and Peter experienced all forms of frustration, discouragement and heartache in their lives.  Yet, they were transformed.

 Pastor David Wilkerson's words speak to the the struggles ahead in the second part of the journey.........

To be a man or woman of God, you must at some point be served a cup of pain. Listen to Jesus' words in the Garden: "O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt" (Matthew 26:39).

Jesus had spent His whole ministry fulfilling the will of the Father.  For three years His life and mission had headed straight toward his cup of pain: the Cross of Calvary.  Yet you can hear the pathos in His words when He turns to His disciples and says, "Could ye not watch with me one hour?" (verse 40).  Whatever pain was in that cup forced Jesus to sweat drops of blood and to cry out, "O God, if it's at all possible, deliver Me.  I'd rather let this cup pass - it's too heavy a burden for Me!"

As Job was being served his cup of pain, he cried, "He hath cast me into the mire....Mine eye poureth out tears unto God" (Job 30:19, 16:20).  In other words, "I am sorely pained, and I can't see my way!"  David said that when he was served his cup of pain, he made his couch a bed of tears: "I water my couch with my tears. Mine eye is consumed because of grief" (Psalm 6:6-7).

Dear saint, I don't know what your cup of pain may be.  But many of God's precious ones have prayed for years for their deliverance - and are still waiting for it.  I believe in healing; and I believe we will have afflictions.  But I also believe in healing afflictions.  David said, "Before I was afflicted, I went astray: but now have I kept thy word" (Psalm 119:67).

Don't think just because you have pain that the devil must be attacking you - that you are not living according to the Scriptures, that you have sin in your life and you're being judged by God. David stated a very simple truth about himself (and us) when he said that had he not been afflicted, he would not have sought the Lord. To say the devil was causing David's pain suggests that the devil was driving him to the Father.  At times I've had to endure physical pain for years.  Each time, I have prayed for God to heal me.  Yet through the pain I could feel God was working in my life, driving me to the Cross and keeping me on my knees.  And after each painful episode passed, I could say it had been good for me.

Do you want to be a man or woman of God?  Do you want the hand of God on your life?  Then you'll drink your cup of pain and bathe your bed in tears.  You'll weep not so much from feeling physical pain, but from a pain that's much worse.  It's the pain of being bruised and rejected by friends - the pain that parents feel when teenagers trample their hearts and become strangers to them.  It's the pain that fills the hearts of husbands and wives when walls of silence are built up and first love disappears.

Oh, how tragic it seems: the turmoil within, the difficulties at home, the restless, sleepless nights - knowing that God is real, that you're walking in the Spirit and loving Jesus with all that's in you, and yet still you're being forced to drink a cup of pain.  The Bible says, "Many are the afflictions of the righteous" (Psalm 34:19). And even though God promises to deliver us from them all, it still hurts when we go through them.  When Jesus was in His hour of pain, Peter approached Him with a sword in his hand.  In essence, Peter told Jesus, "Master, You don't have to go through this!  I'll head them off.  You go ahead and run - get out while You can!"

There's a time and place for the SWORD

A lot of well-meaning Christians are like Peter.  They run around with swords, ready to cut off the ear of the devil.  They say to those who are hurting, "Run while you can!  You don't have to put up with this.  God's a good God - you don't have to drink this cup at all!  Claim your deliverance and be done with it!"   Beloved, don't try to run from the cup of pain He gives you.  Jesus said to Peter, "Put up thy sword into the sheath: the cup which my Father hath given me, shall I not drink it?" (John 18:11).  You see, Jesus could drink it now because He saw who was serving the cup: it was His heavenly Father.

Even when you don't see the purpose behind your suffering, you can drink the cup of pain when you see the hand of the Father serving it.  It may burn, sear and scar you; it may shake you.  But you don't have to be afraid, because the Master holds the cup. You are not drinking death, but life!

Does this make sense to you, or are you more confused?  Well, .....don't feel like the Lone Ranger.  A Night of Confusion lies "So You Want To Be A Man/Woman Of God?  Part 3



Tuesday, September 20, 2011


This past week, I had a friend tell me that I was a man of God.  Hmmmmmmmm.  At first, I was taken aback.....then I felt some pride, but that quickly left.  What really began to stir in my mind was confusion because I felt very little like a man of God, really.  "Just what is a man of God", I thought outloud? 

This is a subject that I needed to research.  And hopefully from that I could come to a clearer understanding of God's desires.  One piece stood out far above the others.  A story from David Wilkerson.  Immediately I liked what I was reading...the good and the bad.    I had never heard of David Wilkerson before, but his words explained the question far beyond anything I could have imagined. 

Before I share with is the short version of who David Wilkerson was, just so you know he knew what he was talking about.  He was the Founding Pastor of Times Square Church in New York City.  Pastor Wilkerson was called to New York in 1958 to minister to gang members and drug addicts, as told in the best-selling book, "The Cross and the Switchblade".  He died on April 27th of this year.

Heck, I had heard of Pastor Wilkerson afterall.  I remember his book as many of you might.  Can he relate to the travels in desiring to become a man or woman of God?  Read on......

I want to tell you about three men whom God used mightily - and how God used failure to produce godliness in each of them. We hear so much talk today about how to be successful.  It is time the body of Christ learns to recognize the scriptural pattern God uses to produce His chosen servants.  And the hard truth is this: Pain, torment, sorrow and failure have produced the men and women of God who have stirred their generations.
Consider Job, the man who failed in his motives.  Job said, "I have never harmed anybody - I know I have been righteous."  Although Job was a godly man who shunned evil, it is evident he was convinced of his own righteousness.  After reading the book of Job, you'll wonder how God could have had such high regard for a man who was so proud of his own goodness.  Yet God knew what He was doing when He allowed Satan to prove and test Job for a season. 
Consider also David, the man who failed in his morals.  Can you imagine such a steadfast man of valor falling into such blatant sin?  How could David have fallen so low as to indulge in adultery - and then commit murder to cover it up?  Can you comprehend that, even after all this, David was still called "a man after God's own heart"?
Consider Peter, the man who failed in his mission.  He had an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ and a personal call on his life from the Lord.  He was entrusted with the keys to the kingdom.  Yet this disciple and friend of Jesus later stood on a hillside weeping, having rejected and cursed the very Christ he so loved.  But in spite of his failure, Peter became a man who was miraculously transformed - and who served as God's spokesman at Pentecost.
Finally, consider Jesus - the Son of God, who was touched by all of these men's infirmities and testings, and who is touched by ours as well.

You have to learn to walk.........
What are the processes used in the making of a man or woman of God?  What forces and pressures does God use to produce righteousness in those who love Him?  What deep, hard, cold battles must a person face who wants the touch of God?  If you really want to know the answer, first be warned: Don't pray, "Jesus, put Your hand on me and use me," unless you are willing to face the trials that must come.
For instance, when you read the biography of a missionary who has been mightily used of God, don't expect to find a story of constant romance, adventure, beauty, love, honesty, happiness and victory - not at all!
At times you'll find the deceptive character of Jacob jumping out at you from the pages.  At other times you'll read of heartache and discouragement - of people who often cry out, "I'm so inconsistent, so inclined to sin. How can God ever use me?"  You'll find stories not of adventure, but of tears and sorrow, of people who cry themselves to sleep.  The pages of such books are filled with tears, fears, suffering and failure.
If you desire to become a man or woman of God, I must ask you: Have you spent time on your knees beseeching God that Christ be formed in you?  Have you longed in your soul to become a real follower of God who walks in the Spirit?  If you have not been obsessed with your desire to be a man or woman of God, then you have missed the mark entirely. Because your heart and your lips should cry out, "Jesus, make me into Your own image!  Let me become Your bondslave!"
I have never once believed that I have attained this. Yet still, there is one thing I want more than anything in the world: to become a true man of God. I want my living and my dying to bring glory to Jesus.
If you really want to find out about the processes that produce godliness, then study what happened in the Garden of Gethsemane. Look at Jesus, the Son of God, because He is our example.  All the forces that were arrayed against Job were there in the Garden, arrayed against Christ.  The tempter who came against David on the rooftop also sought to tempt Jesus in the wilderness.  All the tormenting forces that plagued the soul of Peter also mounted an onslaught against our Savior in the Garden.  There is not a trial facing us that Jesus did not face Himself.  He is touched by the feelings of our infirmities and afflictions - every one of them.  And to be like Christ, we must be willing to face what He faced.
There are three trials that every true man and woman of God eventually will confront.  We'll find out about those in Part 2.



Wednesday, September 14, 2011


Most of us have experienced something tragic in our life.  And when that happens, often times our response is....."where were you God".   Those words might be a knee-jerk reaction or it might be a question we know we'll never get an answer to here on earth.  Nevertheless, the feeling is there.

These past few days, I've heard a number of people ask questions in regards to 9-11.  "Where was God that day?   Why did he let that happen?"  Well......there is an answer.  One that will be useful to you anytime you reach a point of despair.  The story I'm about to share with you is a God-thing.  Told only by the one that knows.....       

I was there................

You say you will never forget where you were when you heard the news on September 11,2001.  Neither will I.  I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room with a man who called his wife to say "Good-Bye".  I held his fingers steady as he dialed.  I gave him the peace to say, "Honey, I am not going to make it but it is okay......I am ready to go. 

I was with his wife when he called as she fed breakfast to their children.  I held her up as she tried to understand his words and as she realized he wasn't coming home that night.  I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a woman cried out to ME for help.  "I have been knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!", I said.  "Of course, I will show you the way home-only believe in ME now.

I was at the base of the building with the Priest ministering to the injured and devastated souls.  I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven.  He heard my voice and answered. 

I was on all four of those planes, in every seat, with every prayer.  I was in the very hearts of the believers there, comforting and assuring them that their faiths has saved them. 

I want you to know that I saw every face.  I was in Texas, Virginia, California and Afghanistan.  I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news.  Did you sense me? 

I want you to know that I saw every face.  I knew every name-though not all knew Me.  Some met ME for the first time on the 86th floor.  Some sought ME with their last breath.  Some couldn't hear ME calling to them through smoke and flames"  "Come to ME....this way......take my hand",  I offered.  Some chose, for the final time, to ignore ME.  But, I was there.      

I did not place you in the Tower that day.  You may not know why, but I do.  However, if you were there in the explosive moment in time, would you have reached for ME? 

September 11, 2001 was not the end of the journey for you.  But someday your journey will end.  And I will be there for you as well.  Seek ME now while I may be found.  Then, at any moment, you know you are "ready to go". 

I will be in the stairwell of your final moments....


We are just days removed from honoring 9-11.  The sting is still there...but for how long?  Will the words God offered in this story be something you can hold onto for more than a couple of days, a week, or perhaps a month?  Or will they be something you can grasp for eternity?

Know this...He was there on September 11th, 2001.  He is here today.  And He will be there tomorrow. 



Thursday, September 8, 2011


It's been 34 years since the movie, Black Sunday, made its debut on the big screen.  34 Years.  Yet it seems like it could have been just years ago.  The plot seems as plausible today as then.  For those of you who haven't seen the 1977 flick or need to refresh your is the basic theme.  

Michael Lander (Bruce Dern), is a pilot who flies the Goodyear Blimp over NFL football games to film them for network television.  He is also, secretly, deranged by years of torture as a prisoner of War in Vietnam, a bitter court martial on his return and a failed marriage.  He longs to commit suicide and take as many of the cheerful, carefree American civilians he sees from his blimp each weekend with him as possible.

Lander conspires with Dahlia Iyad (Marthe Keller), an operative from the Palestinian terrorist group Black September, to launch a suicide attack using a bomb composed of plastique and a quarter million steel darts, housed on the underside of the Goodyear Blimp, which they will detonate over the Miami Orange Bowl during Super Bowl X between Pittsburgh and Dallas.  Dahlia and Black September, in turn, intend the attack as a wake-up call for the American people, to turn their attention and the world's to the plight of the Palestinians.

American and Israeli intelligence, led by Mossad agent David Kabakov (Robert Shaw) and FBI agent Sam Corley (Fritz Weaver), race to prevent the catastrophe.  After discovering the recording Dahlia made, which was meant to be played after the attack, they piece together the path of the explosives into the country, and Dahlia's own movements.  In a spectacular conclusion, the bomb-carrying blimp is chased by police helicopters as it approaches the packed stadium.

As we approach the ten year anniversary of 9-11....we should all be aware an attack of the Black Sunday nature COULD take place.  Not only will our country be remembering the 2,977 killed as a result of the heinous act on our soil, but it is also opening weekend for the National Football League.  Way, way too much irony. 

However, I'm going to take the high road and look on the BRIGHT side, you might say.  This Sunday will be full of remembrance and tribute and national pride.  It will be a day most will never be able to erase from memory.  I remember where I was (in the basement of my home doing some work at the computer when  images of a plane crashing into the first of the Twin Towers came across CNN's broadcast).  Do you? 

In maintaining those images in our minds, it will for a time, cause us to stop and think and reflect.  It's days like this.....and Pearl Harbor that have made us part of who we are.  Make this Sunday one of prayer wherever you are because........
"On the tenth anniversary of 9/11, New York City Mayor, Michael Bloomberg has decided that clergy will be excluded from the 9/11 memorial ceremony.  Bloomberg says the memorial schedule is too busy to allow prayer.  Despite outrage from the American public and calls from religious leaders asking Mayor Bloomberg to reverse his decision, Bloomberg has turned a deaf ear to the protests.

Rudy Washington, a deputy mayor in former Mayor Rudolph Giuliani’s administration, said he’s outraged. “This is America, and to have a memorial service where there’s no prayer, this appears to be insanity to me,” I feel like America has lost its way,” said Mr. Washington. 

I would agree with Mr. Washington that some leaders in this country need to undergo serious change in their course setting  for our country.  Mayor Bloomberg might have turned a deaf ear to prayer but that doesn't mean we have too.  Yes, it's going to be a Bright Sunday inspite of________________.   I'll let you fill in the blank.

"When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world.  Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” -John 8:12




Friday, September 2, 2011


What did I learn from the past week of a Walk in Silence?  Well, interestingly enough, I learned what type of learner I am.  Or maybe it might be more accurate to say, I re-learned it.

We've all heard those testimonies where God has made himself present in a person's life through his voice.  "I was feeling at the end of my rope", one person related to me recently.  "Then, I heard God speaking to me".  He said stay quiet.  I am here and I am in control.  So, I gave it up to HIM.  Once and for all".  I can say I've never experienced anything like that, although I wouldn't mind it....that's a given.  In recent months, I've been  straining and straining my ears to hear God speak.  And straining and straining and......

You ever been there, too?   I'm at a real crucial time in my life.  My faith, my family, my occupation....the remainder of my life is flashing before me.  And I've been stuck far too long.  I've had a number of doors open and shut just as quickly.   And that's been frustrating.  It's caused me to ask all sorts of questions to the Man Upstairs.  Where do you want me Lord?  Where can I serve you in the remaining time I have on this earth?  How can I provide for my family in the coming days?  What more do you want me to give up, if indeed you do.....hasn't our family gone through enough?   Haven't my tests shown you my faithfulness?   Why are things so dang difficult?  

Foremost, I don't feel guility asking those questions.  We all have or will at one time or another.  More than anything, I am seeking a deeper relationship with My God.  And it pains me to not feel closer.  It's been day after day of Silence.  Why so?

Let me see you God, like never before!!  

Well,'s because your a visual learner, I came to realize early this week.  God gave me that earful, through one little old whisper.  And he's right.  I've always been a better "learner" when I see something.  If you tell me about the plight of an African village and the dirty water they drink, I have a sense what they are going through.  But if you show me.....I'm convinced.   I can see how filthy the conditions are and my sense of compassion increases greatly.  Just by visualizing it.  Seeing it. 

So, that's been my big lesson for the week of a Walk in Silence.  I've re-learned how I    Seems rather ridiculous one week of silence would open my eyes to that.  All along I was asking and praying to hear God.  To have him offer some direction for the questions I have today.  And he offered up the colossal comeback.  "Just see me.......can you see me?   CAN YOU SEE ME NOW"? 

"Do you not know?  Have you not heard?  The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.  He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.  He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.  Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will walk and not be faint.-Isiah 40:28-31      

Pretty nice picture, wouldn't you say?.....